Questions and Answers

I must consider all the ways in which I disappoint you, Lord, when I do not speak out. I have no fears sharing my love for you among those who love you as I do. But to share my love for you and of you with people who do not know you is frightening to me. I hope this avenue for expressing my love might in some way compensate for that lack in myself. I am a coward and a weasel as much as anyone else at whom I directed that insult. It is only me that must overcome all the failings of my nature--not those other people whom have so disappointed and hurt me. I need to fix myself before I ever start worrying about what they do or do not do.
Is my fear of speaking out reminiscent of the early days of Christianity when members of the Body would greet each other secretly, for fear of prosecution? Is my fear of speaking out in any way indicative of a serious flaw in my love for you?
I also try by my actions to live my love for you, letting those actions speak for themselve without any words of mine to mar their beauty. For my love for you in intense and deep and priceless to me. I must nourish it more with thoughts of love and goodness and generosity to all. It has always been my hope that those actions might shine out as examles of your love.

Tonight as I was walking along the river, pictured above, you answered some very troubling questions, Lord, and I thank you. I had a bad day and was fretting over a misunderstanding with a coworker. You let me have that wondeful gift of giving everything. I am inclined to selfishly hoard the things I keep thinking of as mine and that is when I hurt over these incidents. This time you granted me the graces I need to give to the other person everything and in so doing, gained a peaceful passage to another dimension of myself and you. I also gained the freedom to let go. I get such a sense of victory when I am able to do that. During our walk I remembered the past things I have experienced with this person. Our difficulties today are not something that need stop us from experiencing the love of Christ in a magnificent way.

If the other person feels it necessary to cut me out, then perhaps it is because you want me to move on to other things. I have spoken much of this with you recently, Lord. I go from fear to anger to depression to joy and back again. But tonight was one of those rare moments when I truly trusted the outcome to you. You do know what is best for me and that is all I need to know. All is well and I do believe you and trust in you. Thank you for the gift of giving completely, and thank St. Francis also, whose novena helps me to get to that place where I can give everything.

Sweet one--

All is well indeed. Do not fear. You have won the victory this day over the demons of self pity and selfishness . They seek to demoralize you with moments of angst and strive to rob you of the peace and victory you have won in, with and through me. They can only succeed if you let them. You have won the victory. Do not let them convince you otherwise. I am with you and fight for you and protect you. If it is my will that governs your life, then you need not question where you belong. I will assign you to the place I have most need of you. I am the God of the Universe and I am on your side. What or whom do you fear? If I want or the situation requires you to speak words, then know I will give them to you. Living my love is a more difficult task than speaking of it. I delight in those of my children whose desire is to live it instead of talk it. All is well.