The thing about being obedient, I have discovered, is that once you have committed to it, it becomes increasingly difficult to be disobedient.
One's conscience seems to "nag" (forgive the rather negative connotation) until one is even roused from sleep to be obedient.
Perhaps the rousing comes from one's Guardian Angel, who knows better than any living person, the cost of being disobedient.
Tonight I committed myself to write a blog post at least twice a week. I did so because I have felt that God is calling me to it.
I have put it off with some excuse or another since the beginning of the new year.
Tonight, while in the Presence of the Lord before the Holy Tabernacle, I heard the command to write loud and clear.
And still, I easily slipped into my "old routine" and almost didn't get it done.
After hearing the command, I said I would. I committed myself to being more obedient to the Lord, yet when I got home, it was the least of my concerns. Sadly.
And now I have been roused from sleep by my Guardian Angel who knows how much of an insult to the Lord any further disobedience from me would be.
I thank you, my dear Guardian Angel, for not allowing me to ignore the commitment I made just hours ago.
Lord, please forgive me for not giving you more. Forgive me for allowing myself to slip back into a routine from which I have begged your help in overcoming. And still, I didn't give the best time of my evening to you. Forgive me and help me to be the person you want me to be.
