Like a Child

I had been having such a terrible time at work. I was feeling so much the outcast and in fact had written to my boss before I went on vacation and asked him to think about my employment and whether or not he wanted me there anymore. It was just me feeling so sorry for myself and while I was on vacation I was still chewing on the bone of my dissatisfaction.

I asked you for help, my Lord and my God and the image that came immediately to mind was awesome. I was walking on the beach and pondering all that I had asked my boss to consider and feeling so sad about the possibility of moving on to something else...about the possibility of my worst fears being true and them wanting me gone....

My mind and heart were churning so much over the whole affair and I didn't know what to do or what was going to happen.

You came to me then or rather revealed yourself to me. Closing my eyes, I saw myself as a small child running to you for protection and safety and justice. And you opened wide your arms and enveloped me in such peace and security that I didn't want the moment to end. I kept my eyes shut reveling in your love for me and it was one of the most wonderful moments I can recently recall of absolutely knowing your love. Because I knew absolutely and without a doubt that you were indeed wrapping your arms about me and that you would deal with what was troubling me. I did in fact picture us walking off together to deal with the situation...me as a small child and you holding my hand, warding off all the troubles that I was so afraid of.

Thank you, my Lord and my God for your constant protection of me and for your everlasting love of me. I will strive to share it with the rest of your children that they might rejoice as I rejoice in your love.

My sweet one--

I love you. Know this. Live this. Joy in this. I will go with you wherever you go. Delight in this truth. I am with you always. Be at peace, child, for all is well.

The Power of the Fast

Good morning Lord--
I must begin writing again so as to offer you my total and complete obedience. Let's see, since I last wrote, my dog Pete had to be put down, Mike quit drinking and the Republicans lost majority control of both houses of Congress. Terrorists are making threats against us, but those threats seem minor to the every day threats of evil now so rampant in our world. What are we to do?
The biggest thrill for me within the last month was when Mike quit drinking again. He is an alcoholic, so his drinking was getting out of control and badly so. We had purchased a new truck and in loading his atv in it right after it was purchased, we drove the atv through the rear window of the truck, shattering the window. I was so distraught over it and told him that he was also shattering our relationship with every drink he took.
The next day, I began to fast in addition to my daily prayers and once again resumed praying the rosary. I'm not sure how far into the fast I was, but at one point, I literally heard a "pop" as if a chain were breaking. Because my husband did not drink that night or the next or the next, I realized that it was the chain of addiction being broken and freeing him from this evil.
Our whole relationship changed overnight into what I have been hoping and praying it would become--a spiritually blessed friendship as well as a marriage. It has been glorious.
But then I disobeyed you and a chink in the armor allowed him to get drunk one more time.
You had asked me to begin writing and I told you I would. I didn't and made excuses for myself as I always do when I disobey. The result was almost as instanteous as the fasting, but in reverse. He began drinking almost immediately from the time I disobeyed. It was a real eye-opener for me. Actually, the whole experience is an eye-opener. First, I got to see how effective fasting when joined with prayer is (AGAIN!)
But I also got to see how devastating disobedience can be. You allowed me to see what my single acts of disobedience will let happen. It's as if the enemies are waiting for just such a moment of weakness to attack.
Fortunately, you have not allowed the drinking to get out of control again, but allowed me to see how damaging my disobedience can be. Thank you for the insight and help me to be more obedient each day.

JC--
My sweet one. Thank you for realizing it was a lesson and thank you for the thanks and praise you gave me at the time of learning the lesson. Thanks and praise are also weapons, as is fasting, against the enemy. You are in training and I hope you will begin to instantly obey when you hear me speaking to you. You are precious to me. Continue on as I have instructed you and know that I love you and will not abandon you to the evils stalking your world this day. We have much to accomplish and once you begin to immediately obey, we can begin our work to save as many souls as possible from the enemy. There is indeed danger in this time. But know that you are Mine and I love you and will keep you from unnecessary suffering. Do you understand that suffering may be necessary for the salvation of many? The operative word is unnecessary....I will save you from that. Offer your sufferings to me in union with my sufferings for this world and know we are victorious.
Go in peace, child. You are one with me in all you do. I love you.