It never ceases to amaze me how easily I let go of the sweetness and wonder of Easter love.
This week, starting with Sunday, has been fraught with all types of ugliness and negativity spewing forth from my heart.
I have been so angry and judgemental with many people. I don't know why these thoughts are plaguing me now and why the anger seems to encompass everyone with whom I have had even a small disagreement but I start ranting against them in my mind and find myself growing angrier with each rant.
The ugliness of such sin is astounding to me. Astounding and appalling
At time like these, the only way out for me is to ask Blessed Mother to exchange my ugly pettiness for her love and understanding.
She always helps me through these times of ugliness with such love and generosity. I am so grateful for her help and love. Especially because it must be excruciatingly painful for her to take my ugliness and sinfulness and exchange it for her goodness.
During one particularly vile rant against a loved one, I wondered if these negative rants might be affecting those against whom they are directed? Does my negativity so expressed actually impact how that person is thinking, feeling?
What if such bad thoughts caused someone to harm another or themself because they don't know how to ask Our Lord or His mother to take the vileness from them?
Oh my Lord and my God, I am so sorry for any harm I may have caused any of your other children by my sinful thoughts and words against them, even if uttered in the silence of my heart.
Forgive me. Amen
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