Healing for my hurting heart

Hello my Friend--
It has been so long since I have taken the time to sit and spend this time with you. I miss it and you so I must make greater effort to spend time here.
My heart was breaking yesterday, yet I know you are guiding and protecting me. I know I am following your guidance, but it still hurts to realize something I wanted so badly will not happen.
Yet, my heart is at peace and I know this is because I have been able to let go of something that got in the way of my relationship with you. I did try to convince myself that it was a gift from you and I think maybe the gift was you not allowing me something that would hurt you and others I love so much. I don't know where we are going from here, but I am looking forward to the journey. Yesterday all I wanted to do was cry. Today, I don't know what I want, except to please you.

Sweet One--
PLease do not be afraid of this turn of events. You knew it was coming and you know it is for the best for all concerned--as you have prayed many times. Do not be afraid to follow me where ever I lead. I love you and want only the best for you. Do you trust me in this? I have good things in store for you and only ask that you trust in me and love me to the best of your abilities. Your heart is troubled because someone you love seems to have forsaken me. Do not let your heart be troubled about this. You have done as I have asked of you in this matter. The choice is not yours to make. It is one of the most difficult things about free will--allowing those we love to choose things that are not of me. Yet you must not want to punish them or judge them. You do not yet know how the story will play out. You must trust me that all is well and that I am guiding and protecting you. Do as I ask of you and know that ALL IS WELL.
Rejoice my little one that I love you so and that you have been given the grace to know and do my will. I cherish you. I will not allow you to be blindsided.

Thank you my lord and King. Please pour out your blessings on my family this weekend. I love you and thank you for all your gifts to me, especially that of my father wanting to know more about my faith.